princess555

OHHHH SNAPPP!!!!!

Tue, 10 May 2005 02:46:21 GMT

Look everyone, I've not given up on live journal... I'm hoping that from now on I will actually remember to constantly make entries for those who actually care what's going on in my life. hehehehe

well today is day #6 of the retarted sickness I've been going through since last Tuesday night... my throat was killing me, headache, fever, stuffy nose and all that jazz. I must admit it's a lot better today then it's been in a while.. so hopefully it'll all be over tomorrow so I can go back to work on Wednesday and continue to make money!!! hehehe

well I'll check back later when I have more to say.
bye bye

p.s. I'm excited for wednesday when I get to bring my "boy interest" around to meet everyone at the Kildare!! wohoo

toodles

Interesting weekend

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 06:26:25 GMT

I've had about the most confusing weekend ever.. it was the best yet in a way the worst.. but more of the best.. lol.. yeah it confuses me too.
Here we go:

I'm going to decide that my weekend started Thursday cuz that must have been the funnest day ever. I went shopping with Matt bright and early in the morning for Christmas presents, THEN I went to the movies with my friend Channing and we saw "Christmas with the Kranks" which was absolutely hilarious THEN considering I had my final exam for Personal Psych on Friday, 2 girls (Daniela and Sarah) from my class and this guy (chad) and I got together Thursday night at Sarah's house to study. It honestly was so much fun that we barely got any studying done and we were talking and laughing the whole night. Also Chad gave me a ride home, and we were listening to his music BLARED so loud.. it was great, I don't ever ride with anyone who listens to music that loud.. I LOVED IT. I've known Chad since I was in grade 6, we went to grade school, highschool and now College together.. he's the world's nicest guy but we hung out with different people and never together, so it was pretty awesome hanging out with him. As for Daniela and Sarah, they are so much fun to hang out with, and "ATTEMPT" to study with.. I'd have to say that Thursday was just an awesome day in general, and therefore it adopted itself a spot in the weekend. lol.

Next comes Friday, the exam was actually pretty easy... then I ended up working all afternoon with one of my favourite people EVER.. Chris L.. he's the coolest. THEN me and the ladies (Kelly, Courtenay, Jessica, other Jessica, and Danielle) went downtown, but first we went to the Hook and Ladder where Kelly's mom works and we had a few drinks there.. then we cabbed to Rush (we had the most retarded cab driver ever) we then danced our asses off, had a lot to drink.. lol.. and then went to Shawarma kingdom and enjoyed some Shawarma. Both of the Jessicas ended up staying at Rush, Danielle took a cab home after Shawarma cuz she lives on the other side of town, then Kelly, Courtenay and I took a cab, we dropped Kelly off at home then we went to Courtenay's. I spent the night there and then came home in the morning........

.......Which of course leads to Saturday, when I got home in the morning I had to do some cleaning and some christmas wrapping, then I had to close with Brandon, which at first of course seemed extremely dreadful, due to our past history of working together. However, I must say it was one of the best closes ever, Brandon and I had some awesome conversations and he provided great insight to a problem I'm experiencing.. so thank you Brandon for your words of wisdom, they were greatly appreciated. I now enjoy closing with you. lol.

Sunday (TONIGHT) wohooo.. I just came home from a close as well.. I got to close with Rob which is awesome, cuz working with him is just pure fun. We were so dead all night tho, it was kinda boring, yet adventurous, because we were trying to fix the broken printer. The night ended successfully (work wise anyway) and so here I am now, practically going crazy, due to the insight that Brandon provided last night, because I know he is sooooooooooo right, yet I don't want to accept it. This majorly sucks because I just want life to go easy on me for ONCE!!!! and now I don't even get to go to bed.. I get to sit here and write TWO essays which must be handed in tomorrow.

OH DEAR LORD, PLEASE BRING ME REST!!!!!!

night :D

ODE TO KATE

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 05:30:13 GMT

Kate oh Kate, my darling KATE!!! lol
I'm sorry I know I have been promosing you an entry forever, so here it is... FINALLY

so this weekend was pretty awesome actually things were going my way for the most part... lets start with Friday. In the morning I had class, actually my favourite class, personal psych, then I chilled with the girls for a bit, then I went home then to Rob's for some singing and an awesome conversation(s) it was great. Later I went on a "date" (if you will) with this guy Pat who I've been talking to for a while, we went to yuk yuk's, that was hilarious. Then Chris picked me up from yuk yuk's and we went to Rush (there's a picture of me and some girls I ran into from highschool at rush... www.windsorsocial.com Dec 3rd Rush page 5) heheheheheh... anyway we chilled there for a while, then I went home. Chris you're amazing,I LOVE YOU. Saturday was pretty cool too I guess... Kate came over for a bit before work, we had a girl talk.. lol... and made easy mac, it was great times then I went to see the Brennan play AGAIN with Brandon, it was also great, JEFFREY YOU DID AN AMAZING JOB, IM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!! then I went home tired and passed out... and well today I woke up, went to work and now here I am all tired and shit. Chelsey was over a little while ago, we had an excellent heart-to-heart and watched Shrek 2.. it was so cute.. I love it... and now it's time to start figuring out what Im gonna do about my assignments and exams.. lol...

wish me luck with everything... REALLY EVERYTHING

toodles
MUAH

I 'HEART' KATE!!!!!

P.S. The bassist from Freestyle 15 is fucking SEXY!!!!!!!!! lol. just so you know.

OH NO!!!

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 15:09:44 GMT

hello... the count down continues... 4 days til my brother's BIG DAY!! YAY THE WEDDING!!!!

well I can honeslty say that I've had one of the best weekends EVER!!!! Friday I hung out with Maja, Michela and Kevin... we went to bubble tea then Michela slept over and we had an awesome talk about things... and Saturday... well that was Jill's bday party!!! and now that I've had a few days to recover perhaps I can tell you about it with some degree of soberness!!! lol

Yeah it was the craziest night!!!!!!! I got far too drunk!!! it started out with pre-drinking at Jill's with the girls.. then we got picked up by a LIMO yes.. a LIMO (sorry I'm very excited cuz we had a limo) and went to Tunnel BBQ for a little snack before the party began... then we hit Danny's.. saw some sexy boys strip, got some body shots... ONE WAS FROM GILES.. yeah he's a dude I went to highschool with.. which must have been one of the most embarrasing things EVER!! cuz I was getting a little mini lap dance and had to take a shot off the body of this dude that I knew.. he's hot and let me tell you I enjoyed it.. but my God it was weird!!! then we got Jilly some body shots.. she was having a good time. After Danny's we went to the Loop... cuz it was also John V's bday and we promised we'd stop by.. so we met up with some ppl there and continued to get drunk... and a whole shit load of stuff happened there which I choose not to get into... so yeah.. then the girls left in the limo and went home but I stayed back with Marcie, Bill, Clayton and Bob... and then we went to Patty O's and then I don't really remember much after that.. I guess I just went home and woke up the next morning for work still drunk!! lol so yeah that was my saturday!!

Sunday, I had to work at 7am after staying out til like 2 and I was DYING at work.. I must've puked like 3 times... then later it was yet another ladies night... some girls from work came over and we watched movies in pj's and ate lots of pizza.. lol it was great!!

Again, I had an exciting weekend... some parts weren't so good.. but I can get over it.. and some parts were just freaking amazing... anyway, I guess I won't really know til I get my pictures back. so yay!! I'm excited for the wedding.. I got my nails done last night and now I'm off to school to do some learning.. lol yaya.. I'll check back later

toodles

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 05:38:43 GMT

KATE.. I love you I really do.. and Carla and Chadai and everyone else I haven't talked to in like a year!!! I'm sorry you guys!!! and I so did not mean to cancel on you, but my brother called for an emergency family meeting about the wedding and I couldn't get out of it.. you can surely yell at him!!!! ask for his number, I'll give it to you.. lol

however, the last few days have probably been the best two days ever cuz I've been able to kick back and relax for a few minutes..... so yeah as I've mentioned 8 DAYS TIL THE WEDDING!! wohooo.. I'm super pumped, plus I get to wear a sexy dress.. and get my hair done and nails and make up.. yeah yeah!!
anyway, it's gonna be exciting... only after that I get to go back to my life of slavery of school work and packing for the move!! AGAIN!! i swear if I have to move one more time I'm gonna cry!! good news tho.. Kate.. I'm moving closer to you... kinda.. yeah... lol... I will call you and let you know everything as soon as I can breathe (in other words.. in like NOVEMBER)

but yes.. I've been working 6 out of the 7 days a week and going to school and yes contrairy to popular belief people who go to college don't have it easy, I thought so at first.. but yeah... it's all coming out now.. believe it or not... it's a lot of work, it may not be THAT complicated, but there's a lot of it... so yeah... life goes on

As I was saying the last two days have been great.... yesterday started out with my brother picking me up in the morning and taking me out for breakfast.. and we talked about wedding stuff then watched Aladdin then he drove me to school and it was awesome cuz I NEVER get to see my brother...so that was the highlight of yesterday... and today was awesome.. I stayed home from school YES.. lol.. I went shopping for a dress and then I went to bingo and won $75 then I went to the casino and won $40 THEN Maja.. won me a little bear from the $1 machine at bingo.. I LOVE YOU MAJA!!!

OH.. WAIT WAIT... to those who thought I've dropped off the face of the earth... well you're close.. cuz I ALMOST did.. I got hit by a car last wednesday and hilarious enough.. NO ONE KNEW ABOUT IT!!! isn't that just dandy...makes me feel so loved.... so yeah... to those who cared and called to make sure I was alive.. thank you!!

P.S. if something like that happens again... and I do die.. I love you!!!

I'll check back later.. toodles

JUST FOR KATE!!!!

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 03:22:33 GMT

well well well... KATE.. here is your entry!!! HAPPY?!?!?!

lol

yeah it's been a while eh? holy shit I should probably get back into the habit of doing this... it's good for me.. I let shit out on here....

well it's been a really really really really really crazy few months since I've updated... shit hit the fan, lots of things happened, don't feel like getting into it... kate sweetie, I'll talk to you about all this when I see you Sunday, with my Ranch dressing!!! I'LL BE THERE!!! woooohoooo

but yeah... I'm tired, I just got home from work.. they asked me to stay an extra 4 hours.. grrr so i ended up doing 7.5 hours... arrrggg
oh well.. shit I do for these people

exciting news?: Brother's wedding is coming up on Oct. 23rd... a shit load of family coming in from out of town... Im moving AGAIN Oct. 30th holy god for the millionth time

bad news?: my mommy's friend died thursday the 15th in that accident on the 401... she's really sad.. and so am I... so R.I.P Lucero!!!! other bad news, I haven't talked to ANYONE in like a month... busy with school and shit... so yeah.. no one has time for anyone anymore!!!

that's really it.. Kate's on Sunday... wohhoooooooo

toodles - I'll check back soon, I promise!!

wheatly

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 04:50:04 GMT

well.. today was quite a busy day for me.. I had my "special" meeting this morning.. LOL.. for those of you who know what I'm talking about should know why I'm excited... that's right baby 4.4 WOOOP WOOOP... after my meeting, Lauren and I headed for the car wash for the "servant" fundraiser.. we washed cars all day then, shannon, shand and I went to Shand's house.. talked for a bit about my boy situation... you see there's this guy that I'm kinda interested in, but there's this other girl (who happens to be quite close to me) is going for him as well.. so it's a tough situation.. but Shand and Shannon talked me through it.... THEN jill and clayton picked me up and we went and got "the bitch" and drove up to wheatly to visit Rob, Cara, Joanne and Shane. YES I had to go to wheatly with Sarah in the car.. fuck this shit man.. nonetheless.. I didn't let her bother me, I just ignored her and we had fun at camping!!! lol

well my birthday is coming up.. YAY..

ttyl

CAN'T SLEEP

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 07:56:40 GMT

good morning.. lol.. yeah.. it's about 3:30am and I just can't sleep for some reason.. Shannon was over tonight, we had our night (something we haven't done in forever) JUST THE TWO OF US.. we got some food, then came back here, watched a movie.. talked about EVERYTHING, it was awesome, man I miss that girl and all the times we used to have just talking, it was really nice to have that back for tonight at least.. lol... anyway, now I'm on a music rampage!!!! I'm dying to just grab a mic and burst out in song.... does that sound retarted?? maybe.. but I haven't been able to do that in so long.. I feel that I'm losing grip of the music world, I feel a need to SING!!!! ahhhhhhh.. but yeah, I'm wide awake... I was on the phone with my friend Rob a couple of hours ago and he was playing some new stuff for me.. it was awesome, that guy is so talented and always seems to put me in such a musical mood, and especially since we talked about me working with his band.. I don't know... I feel like a water balloon ready to burst.. I'm so filled with musically related energy and I need to let it out.. so I'm possibly going to write a trumpet part for one of their songs (of course with the help of my wonderful friend Nicole who is an excellent trombone player... who I still have to speak with about this.. so if you're reading this Nicole.. help!!!.. lol) and I might be singing "bring me to life" with them for the fundraise (which I would like to put together with Shand for our youth group) to go to Germany for world youth day in 2005, which is something that still needs to be planned and whatnot... so Im gonna have to get crackin on that.. not only will it help raise money cuz MANY people will want to come to such a show.. and also a lot of people will get to hear Rob's band and how good they are.. and I FINALLY get to fulfill my NEED to sing!! ahahahha.. yeah I know.. I'm retarted! maybe a bit selfish to be using this fundraiser for personal reasons.. but it's nothing bad, I just NEED to be on stage... anyway whatever!
well I'm going to continue to listen to my music now... and hopefully attempt to fall asleep!!! lol ... OH AND WAIT... SIOBHAN where the heck are ya when I need you?? lol... the one time I'm up this late.. you're not on MSN.. GEEZ

by the way, I was listening to "everybody's fool" by evenescence and it reminds me SO much of a particular person whom I happen to be filled with extreme hatred and anger towards... here are the lyrics.. lets see who can figure out who this song is about..

"Perfect by nature, icons of self-indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world
That never was and never will be
Have you no shame, don't you see me?
You know you've got everybody fooled.

Look here she comes now -
Bow down and stare in wonder.
Oh, how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she
Never was and never will be
You don't know how you betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled.

Without the mask
Where will you hide?
Can't find yourself,
Lost in your lies

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore

Never was and never will be
You don't know how you betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled.

Never was and never will be
Not for real that you can save me
And somehow now you're everybody's fool"

OH YES.. I don't think I can find better lyrics to describe how I feel about this bitch.. it's been almost a year now that we haven't spoken, and even tho normally I'm supposed to have calmed down and thought rationally and in a civilized manner about the situation by now... but I'm actually more livid than EVER!!!! I've never despised anyone this much!!

I definitly feel better now tho after writing/typing in here!! sorry about the fact that I haven't updated in a long time. but I'm back on track now

~toodles

ahhhhhhhhhhh

Tue, 11 May 2004 03:59:33 GMT

today was my first official day as FULL TIME!! ahh... it's only Monday and I already can't wait til the weekend, I've got an awesome weekend planned!!! starting with Thursday actually... Thursday is Dianne's fashion show.. so I will be there, Friday is Shopping then downtown, Saturday is Siobhan, Janna and Suzy day!! wohoooo.. and Sunday, well Sunday is sleep due to the fact that I'm up and back to work on Monday.. actually hopefully at some point during this weekend that begins on Thursday I have to get drunk with Dianne to celebrate the end of her stress due to the fashion show.. so no worries Di.. we will get drunk baby!!! LOL
today was a really fun day actually.. even tho I worked til 4 and was EXTREMELY TIRED... I went bike riding with Erica... well She roller bladed but I biked and we went for a little over an hour..we went all over the place, on the trail and we probably got a nice tan that won't shot up til tomorrow.. LOL.. it was fun too, cuz I never really get to see Erica and it was nice to catch up on everything that's been going on. Then blair came over we watched Will & Grace the watched the finale (pt 1) of 7th Heaven and then Grease... She left about an hour ago and I really should be going to bed it's kinda late and I have to work at 8am tomorrow.. LOL I'm insane!!!

alright, I'll check back in later

toodles

TIRED!!!!!

Thu, 06 May 2004 23:35:46 GMT

Hello Hello Hello... well.. I must start out by saying a BIG thank you to Siobhan and Chris!!! You guys are amazing for fixing my computer, and getting it up and running.... I was going insane without it!!! lol THANK YOU!!!!!
anyway, computer is working=I'm happy!
Well I've been so tired lately, I work far too much and I dont' have a choice in the matter.. I NEED money $$$$ as of Monday the 10th tho.. I'll be OFFICIALLY FULL TIME.. like 8 hours a day, 5 days a week.. the whole 9 yards!!!! YAY!!!! NOT!!
oh welll.. that's life

that's it for now

peace out
lol

BORED

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 02:50:11 GMT

Good Evening...
I'm so unbelievably bored right now!!! I just got back from a walk with my friends Chris and Dave (from work) and it was a fun walk cuz I never get to see them outside of work, so it was cool to hang-out for a bit... it's too bad that it was a short walk but that's only because it was getting too cold outside so I came home! I originally planned on staying home the entire night and just spend some alone time. But then when I went online and jokingly told Chris to come for a walk with me.. TOTALLY not expecting him to say yes, then he told Dave and they met me at the store.. and we walked!!! FUN TIMES!

Anyway, Matt and Dianne were over earlier, and after they left.. I was bored cuz we had so much fun when they were here... I always have so much fun with those two..it's like non-ending laughing the entire time we're together.. it was great...

So today wasn't too bad.... well actually I worked early in the morning then I had to go to rehearsal for the mass tomorrow.. Dianne and I get to sing!!! woop woop!!

LAST NIGHT: I worked two shifts yesterday and was not planning on going out last night at all, cuz I was tired and really bitchy! So I told Shand that I wasn't going when he called.. also cuz I was upset about some other stuff.. but then Shannon called about an hour after Shand called and I talked to her for a bit, and for some reason I changed my mind and decided to go out.. THINKING that we were just going to a pub cuz I didn't wanna go downtown cuz I had been there Tuesday. So they picked me up and we went to the Kildare house but Kate said that it was shit, so we left and went to Voodoo... EVEN tho I looked like shit and wasn't prepared for a bar, I went in anyway, and we danced and drank.. it was fun. I'm glad I went.. but at the same time, I could have used the rest... you know? OH WELL.. that's my life for the past two interesting days!!! lol

P.S. GO TO SONIC NIGHT CLUB APRIL 30TH (ALL AGES) TO SEE MY FRIEND ROB'S BAND (4 STAR HOTEL) PLAY!!!!! they're good trust me! :)

good night

INTERSTING

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 00:49:01 GMT

hello all!!!!
well well, EXAMS are finally DONE!!!! wohooo.. Summer, here I come! I'm so excited to finally start my summer and enjoy every minute away from school!!!! even though I do still have to work practically 24/7 but still I can live with that.. school was getting a bit much there in the end, and I'm just glad that's OVER!!!!

ANYWAY, last night was my first night out celebrating the end of exams... Matt, Karen, Rob and I went downtown to RUSH!! it was my first time at Rush, meh.. I didn't really like it..besides I was expecting to go to Peppers cuz Kevy was gonna be there and I wanted to see him cuz I hadn't seen him in a while!! but anyway, I personally prefer VooDoo or Peppers.. but hey.. you gotta try something new right? WELL while we're on the subject of trying new things.. ahem.. well you see I decided that last night would be a good night to do something different, and even though in my mind I knew it was bad and that I shouldn't have cuz that's the kind of person I am.. I drink THAT'S WHERE IT STOPS!! but I figured hey.. why not.. so I got it out of my system ... i just HAD to try!!! okay for real... if you don't know what I'm talking about.. just ask!!!!! I'd rather not directly admit to it.. lol
ANYWAY, I had fun over-all... it was a fun night.. I mean we danced in the shit club.. but they played good music for the most part..lol
it was fun hanging out with JUST Matt Karen and Rob.. it's a different combination.. like without Shannon, Shand and Greg.. you know?? which is our USUAL downtown group! they're fun too.. dont' get me wrong.. but you need different ppl sometimes lol

anyway, I'm happy.. I have no regrets

YAY SUMMER!!!!!!!!!

toodles

Strange!!!!

Fri, 09 Apr 2004 15:01:07 GMT

Well Well.. it is Good Friday!!!!!!!!
the day we've all been waiting for THAT'S RIGHT!!!!! You know what you're doing tonight?? You're going to St. Rose to watch our play.. YES YOU ARE... @ 7:30 pm!!!!!

Anyway, Siobhan and I were supposed to get together last night, she was going to pick me up on her way home from work.. but Dianne wasn't feeling too well, I guess we were jerks to her, and I felt bad... so I worked things out with Siobhan and I'm going to see her as soon as exams are over!!!! About last night, my friends and fellow cast and crew members ended up coming over last night and this morning. We had some "healing" and "BONDING" time before the play tonight, if that's what you wanna call it.. it was fun!!! Dianne, Matt, Shannon and Shand came over and spent the night!!! we managed to cheer up Dianne I guess... it was a fun night last night, but this morning everyone was cranky.. ESPECIALLY ME!!! I kinda felt bad cuz I was being so bitchy, but that's me!!! I'm sooo not a morning person, especially when people say things to piss me off or argue with me in the morning!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH

oh well, but it was still fun.. we bonded.. lol with alcohol.. hahahaha!!

as I mentioned before the show is tonight I hope people come out to watch.

toodles

WOW!!!!!

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 05:36:37 GMT

Good evening.. it's almost 1 am and I'm just ready to go to bed now.. I worked late tonight, and I'm so tired!!!!!

anyway, it's been a while since I've updated AGAIN.. I'm sorry I'm really bad at keeping a journal I gotta remember to write in here more often, yet again, a lot of shit has taken place in the past two weeks and I've been EXTREMELY busy trying to organize my life.

FIRST OFF, I'd like to take a moment of respect in memory of Greg Lehoux, a great guy who was killed almost 2 weeks ago in a car accident. R.I.P Greg.. you will be missed!!!!

You know... these past two weeks have really been hell in a hand basket for a lot of us, I mean I know I've gone through a lot of shit and I'm experiencing many problmes with EVERYTHING!!! I have exams in less then a week and my head is so clouded I can't even think straight to the point where I was in two car accidents in the same week, only 2 days apart. That's not like me.. I've been driving for a while and this has never happened to me, I mean I crashed my first day ever behind the wheel of a car.. but that doesn't count I was 16, but here I am 3 and a half years later without any accidents and then BAM!!! two in one week!! and what a surprise it just so happens that it all came at the same time that Greg died, I found out about certain issues with my family overseas, and a couple of my genious friends decided that it would be a good idea to be assholes and fuck me over NOW!!! couldn't have picked a better time, good job guys, PLUS I have school to concentrate on, work and a way to save up money over the summer. ANYWAY, bottom line is, I'm okay, Siobhan (who was in the car with me when I had the second accident) is okay as well!!! no one is hurt, well except the car which is no longer drivable!!! my poor New Yorker!!!

Bright side???? out of everything shitty that has happened, a lot of good happened as well, I found out what a lot of people are really made of, I've cleaned up my life of a lot of useless shit that was causing me nothing but heart-aches and problems, I also found out which friends I can count on to be there for me and which ones have better things to do then to be there for a friend in need!!! the truth hurts, but it's the truth and it's gotta come out. I've gotten to the point where nobody can possibly say or do anything to hurt me anymore, I've heard it all, i've seen it all and I've been through it all... from deaths to betrayals of those I trusted the most, family problems, financial problems and finding out that the people I though would be there for me aren't.. oh ya... but my friend Shand really likes this quote and I read it in his profile the other day "if it doesn't kill you, it makes you stronger" and that is so true.. it's an excellent quote.

SO GUESS WHAT???? I'm not dead (although some people probably wish I was) I'm here and stronger!!!!!! YAY ME!!

(I know it sounds a bit corney!!! lol)

I don't intend on wasting any more energy on meaningless crap!!!!! so here's to a new start int he exciting life of SOZAN AKEL!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA

Oh well... this was just a bit of an update, but wish me luck on my exams that are coming up in a few days, hopefully I'll make it through and then my summer will begin.. hopefully a good one!!!

P.S. St. Rose is putting on a play --> "The Dramatization of The Way of The Cross" on Good Friday April 9th @ 7:30 pm at St. Rose of Lima Church.
I'm honoured to be a part of it and I would really like you to BE THERE!!!!!! Come out and support our cast and crew as we attempt to take you back in time to when Jesus was crucified and died for us!!!! (wow, I'm beginning to sound like an announcer.. just come watch okay??? it'll be good.. trust me. We put a lot of work into this we deserve good audience!!!!)

hmmmm

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 05:58:52 GMT

I'm not quite sure as to what I'm feeling right now. Remember that problem I'm experiencing with my love life in which I'm not allowed to discuss, well it's kind of figuring itself out I GUESS!! I don't know... I'm confusing myself because I'm getting different advice from different people and the reason why I don't know what to do could be because I can't exactly tell people whats going on.. you know?? well anyways, my problem is rather complicated and i would really like to be spared the drama and just live a normal life.
Anyway, everyone has march break except us University people...damn school. But this week was fun, Wednesday the 17th Was ST. Patty's and I had some ppl over, and last night Jeff and I went to Moxie's for dinner then saw Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights... it was an awesome movie... we had fun!!

that's about it really... it's about 12:45 am and I have to wake up at 5am to work, so I better go get some sleep eh? I'm crazy

toodles

better

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 01:02:12 GMT

good evening.... I feel a bit better today ...
well last night was fun so it brightened me up a bit. Here's what happened, it was actually one of the most adventurous nights ever!! lol!!! Siobhan, being the amazing person that she is, came over with her bag of "goodies" oh yes... popcorn (which is where the adventure part comes in lol)chocolate, gummie bears, spuds, jelly bellys, fruit snacks and a present for me that was hand-made by her!!!! i felt so special that someone cares that much to do that for me.. she made me a collage of my fav. quote by Tori Amos "The thing one girl fears in the night is another girl's paradise" I'm not sure why but that quote really stands out to me. I love it, and I mentioned that to her one day and sure enough.. she cut out little letters and pictures from magazines and put it together.. she totally made me feel better!! we watched a chick flick "boys on the side" (i think that's what it was called) but yes.. it was good, then we hung out and we just talked, it was a lot of fun!!! NOW: here's the adventurous part of the evening.. Siobhan brought popcorn with her.. however it's microwavable popcorn and guess what??? I just recently moved and my microwave got thrown out.. so I have no microwave at the moment. WELLLL.. yours truly decided that it would be a good idea to put the popcorn in the oven, I mean microwaves get hot right?? well so do ovens... WRONG!!!!!!! ovens do indeed get hot but not enough for popcorn, so we ended up with about 10 popped kernels and a brown popcorn bag that was once WHITE!!! so we had to walk to the corner store and ask the dude if he had a microwave and he actually did... so he popped the popcorn for us and we came back to my house and watched the movie... YES... the adventures of Siobhan and Sozan!!! FUN STUFF!!!!
I love Siobhan tho, she's one of the greatest friends, she put a lot of work into trying to make me feel better and it worked!! THANK YOU SIOBHAN!!! I love ya!!!

toodles

I need a SHRINK!!!!

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 05:51:52 GMT

well hello there, it's been quite a while since I've updated.. sorry about that I've had a hectic few weeks.. wow.
there are certain things that have caused my stress and anxiety, things I am not allowed to speak of or mention in the slightest bit. However, it has really taken a toll on me and I feel as if there is hardly a reason to stay alive. I mean, I'm not suicidal but I might as well become a nun or a bum on the street living in a box. I hate life at this present moment and I want to sleep FOREVER then wake up to a normal world. when and if it ever becomes PERFECTLY normal. School sucks, my friends are alright, work sucks, LOVE LIFE definitely blows... holy shit... I didn't think one person could be cursed so much.. MAN OH MAN.. someone must really hate me up there. Well anywhooo now that we've all figured out that my problem all lies in the L.O.V.E word *ding ding ding* i think it would be appropriate to say that I GIVE UP!! let's just leave it at that, I give up and there's nothing anyone can do about it.

By the way I watched "bowling for columbine" today. All the way through for the first time.. and I actually like it. It made me cry... I hate Charleton Heston.. JACKASS!!!!

anyway, I'm off for now. Please pray for my sanity because otherwise I'm gonna have to go to an asylum for crazy ppl.. lol.. I NEED A FUCKING SHRINK!!

good night

The Passion of Christ

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 19:41:19 GMT

WOW!!! that's all I have to say... WOW
I saw "The Passion of Christ" last night and I'm still shaken up. it was an amazing movie and extremely well done... however it was WAYY too much for me to handle. I have issues with violence in movies and this contained a great deal of blood and violence. Not only was it painful to watch, but it was a true story about our Saviour Jesus Christ which hit me on a personal level. I'm a strong believer in the pain he went through to save our souls, but that movie particularly gave me a new perspective on things that aren't mentioned in the bible that might have possibly happened. I'm not saying I'm going to believe everything that happened in the movie, but the way it was done made me think of things that could have possibly happened that were worse than what we believe. By we I mean catholics. and the fact that James Caviezel (the guy who played Jesus) got struck by lightening during the filming of the crucifixion scene. and he got struck by lightening again during the filming of another scene.. that's definitely a sign from God.. whether it's a bad one or a good one.. I don't know.. that's not for us to decide. But anyway, one of the reasons we went to see the show together as a group because at St. Rose we put on a Passion play every year, and our Coordinator Kathy thought it would be a good idea to see it together considering we're going to be reenacting the stations of the cross. I've had the honour of playing almost every female part throughout the years, however I feel more strongly this year about playing Mary due to the fact that I got to experience EXACTLY what she would have felt through the movie. As you can tell this movie had a huge affect on me and I don't intend on forgetting the way it made me feel and I'm EXTREMELY looking forward to our presentation of it. I have to say that I'm extremely gratful for the pain Jesus suffered for the sake of mankind.
that's all for now.. I'm off to work in about an hour or so.

toodles

today

Wed, 25 Feb 2004 05:18:24 GMT

well well well.. another busy day in the life of Suzy Q
I was supposed to work this morning at 8am but that was before I knew I had to close last night so I called the person whom i was supposed to work for (Chi Chi) to get everything straightened out.
anyway, I had some other mcdonald's shit to straighten out as well.. so I took care of that, then showered and went to Siobhan's. Siobhan, Janna and I watched "MonaLisa Smile" and then I went to Price Chopper picked up crackers and cheese for my pot luck banquet for the confirmation kids at Church. after that, I went back to Siobhan's to hang out with Siobhan and Chris, considering I wasn't wanted at Voodoo appearantly because I didn't get invited by my other friends. but that's a whole different story I don't feel like going into right now. Hanging out with Siobhan, Chris and Janna was fun tho, at least I know I was wanted there. and now I'm at home ready to go to bed.
Tomorrow I'm hanging out with Jeff, I miss him, it's been a while since we've hung out like one-on-one. I'm excited.

toodles

FUN DAY

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 06:51:10 GMT

today was by far the strangest day of my life. I feel like ass about more then one thing. well let me begin from the moment I woke up.. I got up at about 7:30am showered and got ready for Shannon, Shand and Matt to come over because we were having our fun/movie/board game/junk food DAY!! well Shannon came at about 8:30 then Shand got there at about 9:30 then Matt at 10:30ish or 11ish!! we made cinnamon buns and watched MXC, a league of their own, and chicago. at about 11:10 Aaron, Ashley (aaron's cousin), Natasha, and Nicole came over to visit.. jeff was supposed to but he says that no one told him and they said they told him but he had to go home. so I dunno what's going on there.. but either way he didn't end up coming, and I was upset cuz I really wanted to see him. Anyway, enough of that.
Everyone left at around 5ish, to go home and get changed because we were supposed to go to gym night at 6:30-8:30 and play some games.. then I was supposed to get dropped off at Siobhan's house at 8:30 so we can hang out. Well Shannon picked me up at 6:10 and we headed to St. Rose gym for the gym night and BY THE WAY, there's something interesting about gym night that I won't get into now, but it's a fun story.. lol
anyway, at about 7:35ish my work call yelling me and telling me that I"m supposed to be working so i had to leave and go to work EVEN THOUGH I have mondays booked off along with Wednesdays and Fridays but people seem to NOT like to follow my availability!!! DAMN IT!! so therefore I had to call Siobhan and tell her that I couldn't go to her house AGAIN, after getting to Windsor at like 11pm last night after I promised I'd go to her house before 9, but that wasn't my fault, we had car trouble. and tonight wasn't my fault either. I feel so bad about it. I feel like an awful friend.
I've also screwed up royally with other people and I just don't know how I manage to screw myself over all the time, I need to be more responsible of myself and my actions and that they can hurt people around me. EVEN though it's un-intentional 100% of the time.
anyway, that's enough. I'll check back later

toodles

girl's night

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 05:42:00 GMT

hello hello hello
I know I wrote something earlier today but here I am again!!! well, girl's night was pretty fun.. Lauren, Joanne and Shannon ended up coming over. Jill had to babysit and said she would come at 10 but didn't, Chadai had to work but at least she called and talked to me when she was done, Amanda said she might come but I don't know what happened there, Nicole said she would for sure, but then ditched me to go out with other ppl, Natasha said she MIGHT come but she had prior engagements which I understand, and Siobhan told me she couldn't from the beginning which I understood. but anyway, the point is a lot of people who were supposed to come didn't but that's okay because the 4 of us still had TONS Of fun. we watched Dirty Dancing then Jo Jo and Lauren left then me and Shannon had a good talk heart-2-heart type of thing which made me happy because we needed it. so now it's 12:34 in the morning and I'm going to get around 5 hours of sleep because I have to be up by 5:30 at the LATEST to pack and stuff. then I'm off to London
Try not to miss me too much while I'm gone
muah

toodles

sick :(

Fri, 20 Feb 2004 20:46:57 GMT

I'm very very sick... but I'm hyper at the same time.. makes no sense.. oh well... ANNOUNCEMENT: today is Nicole's piano exam... GOOD LUCK NICOLE!!! MUAH I love you! and tonight is... *drum roll*... GIRL'S NIGHT!!! yay, I love those.. chick flicks, ice-cream and pizza how can one go wrong!!! ahhh the heaven.
I'm excited I can't wait til the girls get here. I am also waiting for dinner to be ready, then I'm going to take a shower and then Matt's coming over so that I can give him his present. YAY.. THEN it's finally girl's night.
and tomorrow morning at 6am it's LONDON for a conference!! I'm there until Sunday night with Shannon, Shand, Linda and Cheryl then it's study week.. wohooo when I get to study!! blah!!!!
Kathy was supposed to go too, but her nona died last night.. let's all keep Kathy in our prayers!
well that's all for now..

toodles

MEH

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 04:06:39 GMT

so tonight was fun to a certain extent... well first off... NEWS: my friend Natasha made the top 100 in Canadian Idol.. GO NATASHA.. YAY!!!!!!! she's amazing, this girl is beautiful with an amazing voice... I'm so happy she got this far, way to make us proud baby!!!!! so as a celebration we went to her house tonight just to hang out.. I mean I loved being there and I was happy that I got to see her, but at the same time I wanted to leave so bad.. there were too many people there I didn't know and too many people that weren't talking to me.. like, Aaron was the only one talking to me for like the entire night, even Jeff the person I thought would never ignore me.. well he did.. he maybe talked to me for the first 20 minutes then everyone else got there and BOOM, there he goes.. well he talked to me for a bit before we left, and in the car on the way home and when we waited at my house for his mom to get there, but ya, obviously cuz there was no one else there. I don't know I guess it's the different mindset between a grade 10 and someone in University.. according to him it was fine, according to me I was hurt. but that's okay, he's still one of my bestfriends and I still love him. that's just how it goes. on a happier note, I got to hang out with Natasha and everyone for a bit I guess... well when they talked to me.. She sang for all of us and this girl Alicia yodled.. (sp???) she is awesome as well, I hung out with one talented group of people tonight.
different topic: you can definately say that I'm an emotional wreck at the moment and have been for quite some time now.. NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT, I'm not impressed with any of my friends really right now, I'm not impressed with this dude I happen to be madly in love with, and I'm not impressed with my job.. NOTHING... NATTA... ZILTCH... ZERO... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..

toodles

friends and "friends"

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 05:04:50 GMT

hmm the subject of the night is FRIENDS!! okay so I love my friends all of them.. they're amazing people that know exactly what to do to give me a lift when I'm down, and if I ever lost them I wouldn't be able to survive. And I don't know how to say this without sounding like a selfish bitch, but... I have ENOUGH friends.. I mean, I have quite a few friends whom I love, but I'm kinda getting tired of ALWAYS trying to get to know a guy who might strike my interest, then we get to know eachother, we talk and BAM!!!! we end up being TOO GOOD OF FRIENDS to go out.. that drives me nuts. SOMETIMES... just SOMETIMES a girl needs someone who's more then a friend, and yes more then a "friend" with benefits as well!!! I mean, I'm beginning to think that being just friends is a nice way of saying.. "hey ya.. you're ugly and I don't want you!!!" seriously, JESUS LORD, what does a girl have to do to NOT be just a friend, I mean if I started being a bitch then I'm definitely getting nowhere, but then when I'm myself and just you know.. nice... I always end up being like a sister or a bestfriend.. FUCK OFF for real. I don't mind having my bestfriends and those I consider family. but now I'm afraid to meet anyone new.. like GRRRRREEEAAAT, every time I meet someone, they're either AMAZING and taken, or BEAUTIFUL and assholes, or thinks I'm a great FRIEND. Why is it that the ppl who like me, just don't do it for me.. no offense.. but seriously am I doomed to a lifetime of misery??? or perhaps I LOVE the chase.. maybe that's what it is, I enjoy not knowing whether someone likes me or not.. it's fun to wonder. I Don't know.. I can't figure myself out because if you re-read that last little bit I wrote, it's a COMPLETE oxy-moron.. but hey.. that's what these things are for.. to vent and rant on... if you get it.. GREATTTTT if not.. I'm sorry you'll have to talk to me in person. Now tomorrow is Valentine's day and I'm not the least bit bitter that I don't have a bf because I truly don't feel that I'm mentally ready to have a bf and if I did he would run screaming for his life because I'm too fucking confusing.. BUT ANYWAY, there's no bf and I'm completely okay with that, I might be hanging out with my friends Jeff and Dianne and I might possibly ask Air Bear to join us (AARON) he's amazing, he knows exactly how to put a smile on my face. I guess my real bitterness is because I do have feelings for someone who considers me JUST A FRIEND and I'm on the verge of ending things with that person becasue I feel that I cannot be a good enough friend when in reality I have feelings for this person and I can't bring myself to talk to him about it. that's not what qualifies a friend.. a good friend is honest and comfortable with their friend... but that's where I get to my point... I can't only think of this person as a friend and I don't know what to do or how to go about it.. but a part of me keeps saying that I would rather have him as a friend rather then not at all.. I dunno... On the other hand there's a list of 50000 ppl that have struck my interest and I'm yet to figure out my next move, and there is a person that MIGHT MIGHT MIGHT like me, if so I'm willing to give it a shot no matter what, but until things are settled I will just carry on lying to this person (I know that's horrible) but I can't tell the truth and therefore to him we will always remain FRIENDS because he honestly believes that's all we are to me.. I hate myself for lying or for even mentioning it on here, but I need to get it out and I choose this journal rather then something more private that the whole world won't read.. but that's only because I might be able to get some constructive advice.. and if you think I'm a horrible piece of shit please let me know.. I appreciate honesty even if that makes me sound like a complete hypocrite but I do appreciate honesty even if I don't deserve it because I'm not willing to be honest.. yeah because that almost makes sense, WOW.. I need to go to bed.
but yeah.. that's all for now I guess...

night

Shopping

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 05:46:07 GMT

Hello Hello Hello.... so I went shopping tonight with my friend Michela from work, she's really cool and fun to hang out with... we bought her bf Jason a surprise for Valentine's day, but I won't tell you what it is, just in case he happens to read this.. lol.. it's funny tho. I would say tonight was a huge step in developing our friendship, we talked about EVERYTHING, she knows a lot about me, I know a lot about her, she heard ALL about my interesting stories. and I about hers.
and guess what?? I ran into Bryan Fantetti and his mom. Bryan and I used to be bestfriends until something happened which drove me to fuck everything up with him, and now I regret it all because I miss him a lot and when I saw him tonight I realized how much I miss having him as a friend. He's a great person and I hope that some day we'll be able to get our friendship back on track or even remotely close to the way it used to be. I guess it's true.. you take everything for granted and you don't miss something or realize it's value til it's gone... well he's gone and i realize how much I wish I could turn back time and fix things. Bryan if you read this, I'm sorry for everything and I only hope you can find it in your heart to really forgive me.
it was quite the night. we were at the mall til like 9:30 and then I saw an old friend that I used to work with at Blockbuster who now works at Moxie's his name is Chris and he's awesome.. i wanted to say hi but i had to go catch the bus. I am also experiencing difficulties with a few decisions that I need to make regarding school and a possible move that was discussed with my mother recently. it is a long story and I won't get into it until I am positive of what is going on, which might take a while. well i better go to bed because I have school tomorrow.

toodles